♥ you make me melt like an iceberg

So I wake up this morning at 11:3o. I lay there for about fifteen minutes and then decided to go to the bathroom and wash my face, do my business. I know you didn't need to know that :P I'm sitting there, crapping.. and out of nowhere, I get this huge motherfreakin' cramp! I couldn't crap anymore, I couldn't even piss. It hurt like shit ayeee, I swear that was the first time I was in so much pain! It was like I was giving birth, except I don't know how that feels, I guess it was as dramatic. There I am, struggling, in pain, crawling around on the bathroom floor and yes, of course, I did clean myself --" I couldn't take it, I ran to my room, jumped on my bed and lay on my stomache trying to squash the pain away but unfortunately it didn't work. I was on my bed for about five minutes, in tears, screaming through my pillow so I ran to my mum, not knowing what to do or how to take the pain away..

Me: Mummmmmmm *sobs* It hurtttttttttttttts!!
Mum: What?
Me: I don't kNoOWwwWw~ my stomache hurts
Mum: Go lie down, I'll put asian medicine on you.

So she puts that medicine on and tells me to lie there for a while but I needed to pee so I ran to the toilet and she was like.. "hey! where are you going? I told you to lie there" .. so I told her I just needed to pee.. It took me about five minutes to let it out, it felt good. My mum then told me to go to my brothers room and lie there for fifteen minutes. By then, it was already 12pm and I had work at 1pm, laters. I was lying there staring at the digital clock, time slowly passing, tears falling out of my eyes, still in a bit of pain, contemplating whether I should still go to work or not. Ten minutes went by and the pain was gone. HOORAYYYYYYY!! .. I got out of bed and got ready for work. I just want money hah! Faggots. My mum told me to stay at home but I thought it'd be better off getting out of the house instead of staying home and lying around.

That's my hectic morning. It ruined my day.

I worked, back area. It was so shit because someone is such a freakin' bitch, not going to mention any names. Oh well. I got to work with Thomas today! Haven't worked with him in ages! Was okay, boring though, just like usual.

Oh apparently, the reason for my huge cramp was because I'm unhealthy. I have to try to eat healthy now, which means no more McDonalds. If I do eat McDonalds then I got to start eating LOTS of salads and shiiiiieeeeeet. I had Subway after work, Honey Oat 6-inch, Roasted Chicken.. So healthy this time, NO CHEESE! And I had it with Honey Mustard sauce which was a bit of a bad choice because it was so sticky! It tasted good though, something different, just a tad.

Well, right now, I should be sleeping. There's a freakin' bug flying around my hands and it's pissing me off. I think it's trying to bite me :( ZOMG, it wont go away, my neck feels weird now. fug.

I'm not going clubbing this week, as much as I want to I WILL STOP!!! Oh, I might get a new camera tomorrow :D Hopefully.

So much hate this week. To those who hate me, I love you too : ) You love my sarcasm, I know.

♥ pictures of you, pictures of me

I think in my last post I forgot to mention that I got a new layout (obviously). It took me about three days to find a new layout and another day to edit all the html codes to how I want the layout to look. It still looks the same as the original but with a few minor adjustments, I've made it to suit myself. Mainly just the self-portrait, basic information, chatbox and I've changed title headings.

Well, it's been a pretty boring week this week since I haven't gone out since I think, Thursday. I know it's not that long but it is for me because I've been going out almost everynight for three weeks straight and within those three weeks I've spent over $1200. I decided to take a break and so I've managed to stay home although always contemplating if I should go out or not.

Today, I slept in and spent most of the day in the backyard with the family. I was about to say, I didn't spend my time on the computer today, record, then I realised I was on the laptop in the backyard... Facebooking... and chatting. My god, this virtual life I'm living. Not really. I have a lot of friends in reality, at least I think I do.

It's my little cousin's birthday today, the bugger turned eleven. God, he's a fat shit. He's the biggest one in his family, literally. His older brothers are like twigs! Well, I had to go to my uncle's house for the celebration, for once, I went to a family event. The food was so good and oh my goooooooooooooooooddd! The cake they bought was from the cake shop at Sunnybank!! My family didn't like the cake.. Shit. I ate two slices of Green Tea cake and half the slice of Cheesecake. I hate cake, especially ones from Australian cafes or something, not meaning to be racist or anything but those cakes, I take one bite and I'll gag. Compared to the cake at Sunnybank, I could eat five slices. I'm a pig, I know. We had some karaoke and I almost conked out. I was soooo tired and I still am right now. I should head off to bed soon, might post another blog if I do something interesting tomorrow.. and if I'm willing to.

Goodnight.. or should I say.. Morning. xxxx

♥ im probably gonna take ya home.

I'm gonna get disconnected anytime soon but I thought I should quickly write up a new post while I'm here.

Well, it has been a while. I haven't been lazy to post, just a bit busy, going out a lot and the laptop lags like a goddam snail. I've been meaning to buy myself a new computer but I kind of spent that money on going out clubbing and all. Shit, my mum is walking around the house which means the net is gonna discon--- *modem turns off* ... literally.

I'm still here though, I can keep typing because whatever I type will get saved automatically anyway, I'll probably post this up tomorrow before or after work.

I'm trying to cut down on going out since I've been going too much, spending too much money and getting into the habit of being out every night, not to mention eating out every night, gaining weight and developing pimples on my face, oh and I've gotta stop clubbing on Friday nights.. Although, I'm eager to go this Friday but I have about forty dollars to last me the rest of this week. Yes, because gay work only gave me one shift last week. What bastards.

Anywayyyyyy, if you're one of my close friends then I guess you'd know what has being going on in my life recently, whether it be work, friends, family, boys.. life in general. The main thing, the most usual thing (lol) .. is boys. Yessssssss, I've recently had a mishap this week --"wasn't a great thing, it actually put me into tears, had me depressed but if you know me really well, I can hold strong, I know I can pull through :) I've done well so far, knowing I have to face him at times. It's a long story but I'm glad we're still friends, even if I see him more than that.

In other newwwws, not surprisingly, had another argument with Allen. ITS SO FREAKIN' STUPID. Honestly. I won't mention what it is on here because that's your own reputation about to be ruined. Never knew you were like that --"

-Sigh- So bored. Currently listening to Beyonce - Halo... Wanting to go on Facebook to finish spamming that photo MishJ tagged me in but my mum had to disconnect. Anyways, I don't think I'll end up posting this tomorrow but you're in luck if I do. I'm gonna head to sleep now, work tomorrow *sarcastic yay* ..


& dear MATT P. IF YOU READ THIS.

I HATE YOU, IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM THEN GO DEAL WITH IT. STOP HAVING A CRY TO YOUR FRIENDS BECAUSE I HATE YOU. YOU'RE JUST ANOTHER FAKE THAT I DONT NEED IN MY LIFE. NO, NOT MY LOSS, IT'S YOUR OWN :)

lovelove xxxxxxxxx