fallen leaves, fallen leaves on the ground.

seriously am not gonna say sorry.

it's just a little complicated.

Dearest PV,

I'm sorry. Sorry that you'll regret this one day because this will be your loss. I want my money back as soon as possible. The sooner I get it back, the sooner I can finally get you out of my life for good. I have no more time to waste on a pathetic piece of shit like you.

This was the first time I have been complete and utterly stupid for someone. Doing all these stupid things, giving you everything all because I like you. I'm getting nothing in return so I don't see the point of sticking around anymore.

I honestly saw something special in you - a good kind of special - but now that I think of it, there is nothing special about you, at all. You are misleading. You took advantage of my trust and I feel as if you're only using me.

You deserved to crash and burn on your last relationship. I am a bitch to say it but I'm only speaking the truth.

Yours hatefully,
Wendy.

this wont be the first time that you stood me up.

Blerrrrrrr, FML.

I'm so sick of my parents arguing and shit. This is the longest they've stopped talking to eachother and I'm getting a little bit worried. Mum chucked a tantrum before.. I'm not in the mood.

PV isn't talking to me. I don't think I did anything wrong. It's something small, why is he taking it so seriously? He told me not to turn small things into a big deal. I'm over the fact that he left the party I was at to go to his friends - not really - but I understand where he had to be. I do now, anyway. Texted him yesterday to see where he was because I was stranded at Inala at 11pm - taxi took one hour to come - and he didn't reply. He hasn't texted me at all today and he was also meant to take me to Korean BBQ as a birthday dinner that he owes me. CANCELLED.

Cried my eyes out. Gone crazy, on the floor. If it isn't enough drama happening at home, I don't think I need more shit.

PV, I'm tired. It hurts me writing this. We are NOTHING but "good friends" as you say and I respect that. It doesn't matter if you don't feel the same way as I do, just as long as I know you're always going to be here for me like I will be for you..

djhfaskdfhs I'm giving you everything but I'm getting nothing in return. It's not something I usually do and I feel so stupid right now.

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This is the third Sunday in a row I've cried and I don't want to anymore. Out of these Sunday's, Ernie has always been there for me to help cheer me up.

He's always there for me. He tries so much.
I don't see him in any other way than a friend right now but I wish I could see him more than that.

I made my decision tonight. PV, you forgot dinner. I will forget you now.

all i want for christmas is....................

1. New white Sony laptop with Windows7.
   
2. "L" corner, study table, preferably black.
   
3. A massive photo frame with pictures of me and friends :P
   
4. Another photo album with pictures of me and friends.
5. A couch, one that could also substitute as my bed.
6. If not a couch, then a new double bed + bed frames with drawers... or a bed that turns into a desk.. or has a desk :D
   
7. Someone to repaint my room.
8. A new wardrobe that isn't sooooo huge.
9. Playstation 3 or Nintendo DSi.
10. Carpet floors.
11. MONEY! $1000 will do me okay but if you're awesome then $10000.
12. You.
    

HAHA no one will read this.. sigh. Hopefully a good friend or someone in my family wins the lotto one day and spoils me rotten xxxx

feels like im hanging on a thread.

I think I'm about to let go...

your eyes & your mouth are saying different things..

The cat's got my tongue... or I'm just really scared to admit.

Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you couldn't because you're too scared of their reaction? -sigh- I'm feeling that right now.

I want to tell him soooooooo badly, that I miss him but I'm scared that he'd push me away or lead me on?! .. I don't know. Maybe he'll react in a good way but I'm just really doubting that right now since he's 'not ready'

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!
I get good vibes though. Bler.

What's gay is that I have him on Facebook and he just fucking deletes my comments. I'm sure he knows that I like him and even though we're NOTHING but friends right now it hurts sooooo much seeing him talking to other girls.
Things I hear from my friends are killing me too. The smallest damn things.

What are you doing to me?!

~ Would you rather... A lie that draws a smile or the truth that draws a tear?

Please let me know how you feel because this is hurting me too much.

zhe shi ai ...

Hmm, i'm missing you too much now.

close my eyes so i can see you.

I thought it'd be the hardest thing, again, explaining to someone why I bailed on a date. Always the usual "I've lost feelings" Nope, not this time.

I think I'm maturing. I used to be this person that couldn't explain jack shit to someone but I've been working on it and I've been able to in quite a few situations. It feels good to be honest but it sucks when the person you're being honest to doesn't take it too well. I'm talking about this one person here but I won't name which I really should because the other person I had problems with might think it's him but then again there's no point because no one really reads this shit, LOL.

Did nothing at all today. Well, slept in, bailed on Ernie (I AM SOOO SORRY), played tetris beta, walked the dog, and then:

Hung out with a friend before, he told me about some problems and he looked like he was about to cry. Majorly made me feel so bad, so sorry for him and I wanted to give him a huge hug and just comfort him but I didn't know if that would have made things awkward. Haha shucks.

Anyway, I won't bother writing much tonight. It's getting late, I'm tired and I have other things to think about..

I love Natalie. she's the maddest egg ever (egg: white outside, yellow inside. GET IT?! You're so asian Natalie)

I miss you, too bad.

HIM.

Maybe it's just a huge crush... I don't really know what to call it.
But I miss you. The way you sang like a retard on the phone or in the car. The way you'd react when I made fun of you almost every time we talked. Me being disappointed in you, for not being there when I blew out my birthday candles. Having a little argument at 12:20am / 29th Nov 09 because I thought you forgot my birthday already & because you thought I was being serious when I was really joking. How watching movies tonight was plain shitty because the seat next to me was empty and I had no one to lean on. How you really hate Twilight or anything to do with it yet I still tried to ask you to watch New Moon with me, knowing that I'd fail in doing so anyway.

It's just the smallest, simplest things.

I blame you but I also blame myself.
I blame you for asking me silly questions that got into my head, making me think too much.
I blame you for saying you wouldn't do something, when you still did without intentions.
How could you say it's a joke? Is it really something to joke about? ...........

I blame myself. I blame myself for one thing only; hanging up on you was the hardest decision but I thought it would be for the better. It was hard and it really hurt me after I did it. Now you won't talk to me as much as we did before and it's something I do regret.
A joke? No. I like you, it's not a joke. I miss you, it's not a joke.

There's nothing I can do now, except look forward rather than behind.
I'll hope for the best, I'll hope you'll still talk to me as much as before even though I know it probably won't happen.

I miss you.

Trying to see someone else but all I can see is you.

boy, you got me hypnotized.

FOUR DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY.

YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYYAY~~~

lets get away........

Hello World! My birthday is coming up soon. Dreading the thought of turning nineteen *sigh. I feel so old.

So like, life is so boring and oh em gee, death thoughts are freaking scary. I was taking a shower the other day and 'death' popped into my head. I almost shat myself. It's weird, my body goes really cold and it'd feel like I've fallen through a black hole. I'm curios about the afterlife... If there is one.

I really don't know what to talk about right now but Holy Shit bru, we're near the end of the year :( Time is flying way tooooooo fast for my liking. Not to mention, we're near the end. Yep, 2012. I don't want to believe it but it's just mehhhhhhhh~ Damn prophecies. I bet the media is just trying to scare us again.

Anyways, I can't be fucked writing. Maybe at the end of the month. No one reads this shit but oh wells. Will tell all about my awesome birthday party. If it goes to plan :)

I'm weird 'cos I hate goodbyes..

Lalala. I'm really starting to hate working full time. Especially at the Newsagent, I get shit pay. I think I'm going to quit soon... hopefully I'll have a new job by early next year which I really doubt because jobsearching is kind of hard. My resume is really shit too so bleh, doesn't help.

Been taking heaps of magazines home from work lately... I guess that's one of the best things about work - taking home leftover magazines. I always take 'The Picture', 'Pick Me Up' and anything interesting really. Check out what I got this time ;)

Ain't he sexy? Haha! Yeah, I think so too! And I love his shirt! But there's a catch... Unfortunately........................ He's fucking gay! Such a waste *shakes head...

Oh, here's another awesome photo :)

Don't ask. The magazine was just lying on the floor and I thought it was kind of amusing. My manager laughed when she saw me taking it. AhhhhhhhLOL at some of the whacky photos they have in there! I think this is my new, favourite magazine! I can't wait to take the next issue when it needs to be topped. So damn funny! Hahas.

So, yeah. That's all I do at work. Read magazines. Meh.

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Don't think I'm looking forward to the weekend as much anymore. I think I'm going to stay home tomorrow night instead of going to the Halloween Dress Up Party :/ I've been out too much this week. Hmmm.............. Although I'm looking forward to beaching on Sunday. Yay!

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RAAAAAAWRR!~! .. oh man, I feel like Grass Jelly with Evaporated Milk....

I'm weird

just thinkin, thinkin, thinkin, bout you ..

Oh, Blogspot! How I've missed you, dearly! .. Not Really.

I finally got my internet back, obviously. After weeks of freaking waiting.................. my mum got ripped off. Serves her right for getting talked into by a curry muncher to sign the damn contract! Yep! She signed up for what she thought was 'unlimited' when really, there was a limit... of 8gb! That's fucking nothing.

Anyways, I also got a dog. We named her Konjie because my brother was eating Congee at the time and I couldn't think of any other name to call her. Ahhuh, isn't she adorable?

Looks are deceiving. This female Chihuahua x Maltese shits everywhere and loses so much fur it pisses me off because I'm the one taking full responsibility....*sigh. I have to wake up early just to clean up dog shit :( My mum told me she couldn't stand it anymore and told me to give it away today but luckily my dad won't let! Yay!

So yeah, that was pretty much my news for those past weeks I haven't been writing on here. I know it's not much but it's a lot to me. Oh and it was my sister, Kha Han's first birthday yesterday. Happy birthday Kha Han!!!

And! AND! My birthday is in about a month and I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do for it... Any ideas, my invisible readers?

great night but too bad someone's a crab.

I know this guy and he's on his rags. I like to argue with him because I'll own him, tut tut.


On a better note: Tonight was freaking awesome! So much fun and laughter, something we must do again soon!

i'm only fooling myself .

I stop to catch my breath
And I stop to catch your eye
No need to second-guess
That you’ve been on my mind
I dream days away, but that’s okay
It’s like I want to hear a silent sound
And then hold it in my hand
But a rose won’t blossom from a ground
Of desert sand, but I like to pretend that

One day I’ll turn around
I’ll see your hand reach out
I’m only fooling myself, oh yeah, yeah
But maybe when you smile
It means you’d stay awhile
Just maybe you’d save me now

Well, now it’s etched in stone
That I can’t survive alone
You have the missing piece
That I need so desperately
Yes, I slip away to a day that’ll never come
It’s like a splash of water to my face
When I suddenly realize
That you could never find a place
For me in your eyes, and I don’t know why I keep thinking

One day I’ll turn around
I’ll see your hand reach out
I’m only fooling myself, oh,
But maybe when you smile
It means you’d stay awhile
Just maybe you’d save me now

It’s love in disguise
I’m lost in your eyes
I’m lost in your eyes

One day I’ll turn around
I’ll see your hand reach out
I’m only fooling myself, oh, yeah, yeah
But maybe when you smile
It means you’d stay awhile
Just maybe you’d save me now
Save me now
Just maybe you’d save me now

The beginning of the same chapter..

Fall, break, repeat..
for one person. What makes him so different to any other guy?

I'm caught up in this mess.
& I can't seem to get over you, no matter how much I try.. It's been over four years. I keep finding myself running back to you..

I want to believe time will heal us.




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& I'd rather deal with an injury. Cos at least I know the pain would leave (8)

im feeling so out of place...

maverick says:
do ittt =p
dont let him drift away wendy

wendie says:
when that time comes.. i'll remind him of what i was to him

maverick says:
awww
ifly
coz ur such a hard cunt
T_T

wendie says:
hahah

maverick says:
no really
u inspire me all the time

wendie says:
aww

maverick says:
u give me strength everytime

wendie says:
*tears of happinesss

maverick says:
i want to hug u
and borrow ur cement mixer

wendie says:
i need one =/
LMFAO

maverick says:
HAHHA

wendie says:
i see how it is..

maverick says:
i wanna hug u
and then u will let me borrow ur cement mixer coz u feel bad for me XD

wendie says:
lmao
im sure everyone has a cement mixer..
no ones learnt how to use it yet ;P

maverick says:
i love that

wendie says:
i mean... not many of them have learnt how to use it
yeah i just made that up on the spot


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Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

some people just don't know their limits.

Life is still shit.

- I love my job at the moment because all I do is serve, bludge, stock, rip up scratchies, bludge, bludge, serve, stock and then I don't have to do much at close (Y). It gets a bit boring though. The atmosphere gets so awkward when the boss is there...

- Finally called up the Australian Tax Office to change my details and they're sending my tax return to my bank account.

- Haven't yet paid for my phone bill that is costing $600? I don't fucking know. Optus is messing with me. Customer service says I owe $600 but I just got a letter today saying I owe $450.

- Other friends problems thrown at me. It's not a bad thing, I love to help them out but it kind of sucks when you have your own problems.

- I'm always a day too late (8) ... Finally regretting something I did in the past and I'm not very happy about it.

- I still hate the fucking bitch.

- I need to get myself organised as soon as I pay off my bill... that's if I can even pay it off!

Bleh. Shitson, there's more but as if you'd want to hear about it :P

I suddenly feel alone again............

Claude Kelly - Always A Day Too Late

I guessed there’s no point saying this now..
Its done and you’re gone..
This doesnt count but now that you’ve gone away..
I’ve realised every day I made a mistake..
You’re the best thing I've ever found.

But now that I want you, you’re moving on..
I tried to call you but nobody’s home..
I didnt know this, til you went away..
I’m always a day too late.

I’m done I know, waiting this long..
There’s no explanation, for letting you go..
And you were right all along..
I missed you bad when you’re gone..
I finally opened my eyes and now im standing alone..

But you ran to me, I didnt want to be bothered..
But now I finally see that you’ve moved onto another..
Now honestly I get the reason why you left..
But damn I wish I had you back..

You're still there for me..

Confess to me, every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believed
Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me......... (8)


Woop! I'm now employed as a full time shop assistant at the Newsagent! Working there is okay. It's pretty easy - I've caught on really fast and may be able to work without supervision on my next shift. The only thing that makes the job hard is when your co-workers never freaking smile! It gives the atmosphere so much awkward tension, it makes me scared to approach the co-workers which isn't a good thing because I may need help. At least some are nice and smile :)

I still have my phone bill to pay off and I'm pretty sure I'm going to owe over $1000 now. I have someone that wants to help me pay it off but I don't feel comfortable with that person doing so. I don't know why? It's weird. Lol. I can't wait until I get my first pay. I should get about $400 at the least? As I am working 38 hours this week and I get paid about $12-14 an hour, I think.

Anyways, been kind of shitty lately. Starting to hate myself again - my life is so screwed. Bleh. My friends are always there to make it better though :) Thank you guys!

Went to Gold Coast last night with Steven, Dimmy, Tim and Chingaling. Zomg, Baskin Robins is deeeeeeliciousssss.. I finished a massive 2 scoop cone myself and I was full! I should have taken a photo of it. The cone was the length of my face :D haha! Zzz

Okay, this is getting lame. I don't think I'll blog as much anymore. Maybe monthly.

starving.. wanting korean barbecue... now.

I finally got a job!!

Now I have to .....

Call Optus and extend payment of my phone bill..
Fix my stupid tax document..
Open a Commonwealth bank account..
Pay back debts to my friends..
Get my fucking Learners..
Get my name changed officially to "Wendy Tran"
Buy Kylie's late present..
andddddddddddddddd save money for unecessary shit..

Hope I get the first few done in time ...

i'll think about it..

all i know is im lost without you, im not gonna lie.

I can't believe it and I don't want to believe it.
My feelings haven't changed.
I still see you as the person I thought you were.
Or maybe I just want to see you that way.

I froze when you told me, jaws dropped.
My eyes started to water and I tried to hold them back.
All that time I thought you were only joking.
Turns out you were being serious.

The only thing I can do now is let go.
I held onto a thread, it's broken now.
I've fallen, fallen so deep for you.
And I've wasted my time.

But I just want to let you know, before I go.
It's become a habit, talking to you on a daily basis.
I've enjoyed your company so much.
I love you, for who you are and I still do.

I have no regrets......

you shall be dubbed; sir kota.

Hi. Shit start to my morning; not enough sleep and my uncle barged into the house and had a go at my mum for a stupid reason. I felt really sorry for her =/
My day gets better ............

- I'm 80% sure I'm getting a puppy, from Tuyen.
- Cammed with Rikki before, Samii knitted him a beanie, so cute!
- I'm chatting to heartheartheartheart :)
- A random said to me "I'm your type of guy" (LOL)
- Some guy from Griffith asked me to model for his portfolios. (Y)
- I found Audition; yippeeeeeee!!!!

Still missing him. Still waiting... Hopefully not too long.
Facebook says another week; like I'm gonna believe it.

uhh yeahhhh.. totally; SHINee - Replay (English)

"nunan neomu yeppeoseo.."
just when I thought I could go
my heart is lost and you're pulling me back again
wishing on a falling star
wish I could be where you are
somehow you came and changed my everything

when you're not around
I just feel a little down
this is kinda silly right... it's not okay to me
and I think I'm gonna hate it boy
if you turn your back on me
I don't wanna let this go ...but I'm wondering*

how do I be careful
not to show you what I dream of
kinda crazy but I
replay replay replay
when we're together
every moment that I treasure
like a movie that I
replay replay replay

you know you're my M.V.P., no one else has got what I need
when it's just us two, I get shy but then you keep it so cool
the way you're always watching out for me
and although I wanna believe
tell me I'm not just imagining..

"nunan neomu yeppeo"
I don't wanna hear it no more
cause I know it's gonna
replay replay replay
keep trying not to fake it
how am I supposed to say it
you're the song that I
replay replay replay

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How do I find out the truth? It's too hard to ask you myself or even confess.

You might be telling me you're not ready and I take that as a hint, you don't want to be in any kind of relationship at all and I'm okay with that.
I just want to know.. Do you feel the same way as I do?
It feels like I'm holding onto a thread. It's about to break. I want to know now..
I've told myself I'm letting go, yet I'm still hanging on, only because I know, I can feel it, there's something there. It's holding you back.

I've had the same experience two years ago. He said he doesn't like me, just to push me away but I knew it, deep down he did. Maybe there's a chance, you like me but you don't want to say it.

Zuhmygod, I sound so corny and retarded..........

in this life, im failing... at everything.

Okay, I know this is my second post but I'm freaking bored and desperately need to vent - I don't even know why but I feel as if all of my emotions are bottling up inside and I'm about to explode.

For one, my life in general, is shit. I have no life, I sit at home and use the computer most of the day or I'm out. I don't even have money to go out yet I'm still surviving and I have my many awesome friends to thank and yus, I must pay you guys back when I can! -Sigh- I need a job so bad. I doubt my friends mum is going to call me when she needs people to work. I know you guys are probably thinking "stop lazing around, get out and find a job or go back to studying!" but yeah.. it's not as easy as you think it is! Since we are going through a recession, applying anywhere seems to be useless anyway and it's past mid year for TAFE so my only chance is applying now to study next year! I don't even know what I want to do in the future. At the moment, I'm just a freaking bum. Heh!

Friends - I'm becoming so lost with my friends. Sometimes I don't even think they see me as a friend or I feel left out and all. What has annoyed me the most is the fact that I've become so dependent on my best friend, who now has a boyfriend - feels like I've been forgotten at times. We used to hang out a lot but it's all changed now. Even other friends, feels like they've drifted. I feel as if the only friend I have now is myself.. Although Maverick is always there for me 24/7 and he is my best friend as well :)
It's funny how close you are to someone one minute and the next it's all faded. Just like a minutes been wasted. You spent so much time building your trust with someone only to let it slip away. Ehhh~

Family - I'm not so close. I don't talk to my family much and I rather not. I kind of feel left out at home as well, like when my mum said I was adopted, maybe I was? Lol. Oh, then again, I was the accident in the family. Shocking, I know right? I was pretty damn upset when I found out. I just felt like running away again and not come back.. But I'd never. I love my family a lot, it may not seem like it because I never show my emotions to them but deep down I really love them. Why's it so hard for me to show? I showed only once and that was probably last week when my mum broke down and cried, I was there to comfort her. It felt nice. Why can't I do that everyday? Puck you life, Puck you Wendy.

Love - HAHA. Oh, Love. LOVE LOVE FUCKING LOVE. I have to admit, I'm loving the current crush right now. And I wasn't being sarcastic! What I mean is, I like him to this point.. I don't know. It's hard to explain but I love this feeling. Lol.
It goes: Girl loves boy but boy doesn't love girl. Simple. But I can't get that to my head. There's something there, I can sense it. Usually when a guy doesn't like me back, I'd be like "fuck you, I hate that I love you" and go all emo bullshit. But I think there's something about this guy that just keeps pulling me back? It's become a habit, talking to him at night - I can't stand not talking to him! I think I'd go crazy, insane.. MENTAL? Haha. Call it an obsession, I think I'm in deep like! :) I don't like to use the word LOVE! Hmmm yeah. He makes me smile even though he doesn't say anything special. Even in my crappiest days, anything he says! Even if it's stupid, he still manages to make me smile. Never once have I really cried over him.. Well, I kinda dropped two tears but how often does that happen? I usually cry a freaking river after rejection but ahhhhhhh~~~~ I think this one is for keeps. I just hope he doesn't make me wait tooooooo long =/

LoL! . . I miss you :D


( You try, you fail. You try, you fail again. But the real failures are the ones that never try or give up too easily - taxed off Cindy!)

Zuhmygod. I wrote that last night, how retarded, lmfao!

her looks are deceiving, shes a total bitch.

Well, I was going to write up a short story - based upon my friendship with a certain person but I'm so shit at writing, I deleted it all.

All I can say is: "Ewww, that's fucking ugly."
and "Hah! Bitch, I'm so much better than you, truth hurts doesn't it?"

Um, yeah, real mature. I know right? Well, okay, I'll tell you a bit of the story, to the point:

I used to hate this chick back in high school but around last year we became really close and I put my trust in her and I saw her as a sister. I introduced her to the guy I like and she talked to him and hooked up with him. What the fuck? Yeah, laters to friendship - also because I talked shit to people about her but hey! it's not 'shit' if it's true, right?

Well there's more to it but that's all I'm going to say about her.

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My aunt bought Jackfruit Blended Ice from Healthy Cup, yummo.

Oh yeahhhhhhhhh, I'm feeling kind of happy today for no reason. Or maybe I'm high on Jackfruit? Lol, no.

You know what? Usually I'd be depressed because that certain person doesn't like me back but I'm handling it pretty well this time. I still talk to him like normal and yeah, he still manages to make me smile even though he doesn't say anything special. I must be some retard hahahhaha. Awww, I miss him.

Has anyone heard Lil Louis - French Kiss? .. That's one freakin' hot song, the beginning is boring but from middle to end is all worth it, you horny little boys will like it, Lol.

& I don't know Dictashion but thanks for commenting! If you're reading this I can't comment on your blog but I think your name is Natasha Lay. I shall Facebook stalk you hunneh ;)

i'm lost without you...

The one person I used to turn to when I was down, the one person who lent me her shoulder to cry on. The one I always bitched to, the one I could depend on to be there when I needed someone the most.

My best friend - I met her in 2005 at Vietnamese school and we didn't think much of each other (I thought she was weird. She thought I was a bitch). Weeks later, we started talking and since then, we were the best of friends, we were inseparable.

But as time passes, things sort of change. For her, she now has a boyfriend and it's hard for her to keep up with me and I understand that. It's just that sometimes, I feel as if I've been left out so much and no longer a part of her life. I feel so distant from her now... We don't hang out as much, she still tries to be there for me, even without the best advice, she puts in effort to talk to me about my life, like a best friend should. I don't know, it just doesn't feel right anymore.

I get so angry sometimes. Right now, I just feel like crying.. I talked to her just before about some stupid things, almost had it turned into an argument but I tried not to. It's stupid, it bugs me. I felt as if she used the words "best friend" against me. Because we're meant to trust and understand eachother. I told her to think again what "best friends" meant and I broke down.

That feeling of being a best friend... it's just not there anymore. I don't feel it. The best friend I see in her eyes, is her boyfriend.

This is more painful than rejection.. lol. I have something worth crying over...

mum threw out my scones cos she dont want me fat.

Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now (don't tell us who it is):

1. I made it so obvious. You knew but you kept it to yourself and played me like a fool.

2. You know that it's not easy for me to say "I love you" but I really do. You're always there for me and I really appreciate it. I will always be there for you, ily my bbf.

3. You're the most best friend anyone can ask for. We've been friends for almost five years and never have we had an argument thats lasted over weeks. We have a bond that can't be broken.

4. I used to dislike you because I thought you had attitude problems but over the past few years of knowing you and becoming close, I've seen your soft side. You don't show your emotions a lot, I sometimes think you have the heart of a guy but you're an awesome bitch, ily.

5. Thank you for hooking me up with a job even though I'm going to have to go through slave laboury and get shit pay for it.

6. Your immaturity brings the life to every bNK social night. Even though we get disappointed being unable to get more than two carloads for our events, we still manage to have fun.

7. You're a faggot of an ex sometimes but you taught me a lot. Not just about things in general but also about myself. I wouldn't have known what kind of person I was until you told me.

8. You can get on my nerves sometimes but you are a good person to talk to about problems.

9. I only just met you on Facebook and just recently started talking to you. You warned me that "he" was just playing me. I was in doubt but you were right. How can you see through him when you don't know him?

10. You're pathetic. It amuses me how much you talk shit and turn the tables onto me. You don't even hear me out and you always think you're right. You think you're all that, top shit and fucking hot. Lol, your personality shows your true colours. Get over yourself.


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Ohmygod. I heard my aunty talking to my mum and I full bolted out there because I was hoping she brought scones home from work and she did! Yes! and uhh, yerrrrrrrrr, my mum threw out my scones last night because she didnt want me to get fat just because I ate them with butter the other day. Gosh! I love my mummy haha.

Whoa, it was like the scene from "When A Stranger Calls"

Okay, first off.. where are my fucking scones? I'm starving and my mum hid the scones somewhere. I've looked everywhere in the kitchen, including the bin and they're not there!!!! Omg, I want my scone! With vegemite :) yummo.

Haha, yeahhhhhhhhh. I'm freakin' capped now because my mum downloaded Cai Luong for my grandma. Can you believe that? My mum used up all my downloads! Good thing she might be changing the internet plan to TPG. Don't tell me it's shit, I don't care. I read the advertisement today and got told it's cheap, goes at average speed and gives you heaps of downloads, I'm pretty satisfied. So, woohoo to that!

My poker isn't working right now because the net is freakin' slow. It won't load properly and I'm dying to play to get my chips back - guess what bitches? I lost over 200k and I was heartbroken - I've learnt my lesson from going into a 10k blind room - not doing that again! Unless I'm richhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Ahhh... I love poker!

Ahahhaha, yeah. I'm going a bit spaz right now and I don't have a reason.. Or maybe I'm going crazy because I want my goddamn scones!!

Oh, yerrrrrrrrrrrr.. I heard a phone ringing before and it sounded like those olden day phones - you know those ones that.. yeah you know, I'm sure you do. Anyway, it kept ringing like, nonstop so I tried to find where it was coming from so I went into my brothers room and searched. As soon as I looked up I saw a shadow zoom across the room like WTF?! That's some freaky shit but I lied about that. No, I walked into my brothers room and the blinds were still open, the neighbours flood lights were still on and it looked freaky. I quickly went over to close the blinds and went back to my room but I could still hear ringing. My friend thinks I'm just hearing things but I swear I heard ringing! I think it came from my laptop anyways so I turned my music on - (I almost typed "I almost turned my MUM on") to drown whatever ringing noise it was.. So yeah, story of my life man!

Not really...

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Baby, been trying to getting this out of my heart forever.
Thought the remedy to a broken heart was you.
But I realized that it was just nothing,
and I never should've loved you.
I was so stupid, stupid for trusting you.
So stupid, stupid for loving you.
Oh I'm so stupid, I'm so foolish.
I'm stupid for loving you boy.
Should've known you weren't the one.

Lol. What am I doing? I'm only fooling myself. Thank you Max for warning me - that you think he's playing me - even though you don't know him. I should have listened. Lesson learnt.

Yet, I still miss him........

lmfao, wendy you dumbfuck. got playeddddddd.

I can't let you go, I keep trying but I can't. Boy, it's impossible, I miss you too bad.

Nah, fuck it. I'll let you go, I'm not going to try. It's possible, I won't miss you anymore.

You're probably wondering what the fuck I'm being all shitty about. Lol. Long story but I should tell you anyway? Yeah, just to fill my blog gaps.

So, I met this guy a while ago - last year. I never really talked to him until after Chinese New Years - I asked a friend for his email and yes! I got it *happy*
He never really talked so I said "you know, I'm going to delete you off my contact list unless you can give me a good reason not to" so he said "because I'm cool! No, jokes. I promise I'll talk to you when I'm not busy" something along those lines anyway - I was happy with that so I left him on my list. He did chat to me after he promised which was a good thing.
We been talking eversince then but not like every night or anything - just anytime either of us feel like chatting.
Recently, we've been talking a lot. I started to gain feelings for him but I wasn't really sure because there were other guys in my life as well but I was able to cut them out for specific reasons.
Right now, I really do like this guy but I'm just so uncertain of him? He talks to me and says things that make me happy, it brings a smile to my face but there are times he just makes me lose hope. He confuses me. I don't know what to do anymore - I had a sulk about it just before.
I talked to Max Nee about it over msn and he thinks I've been played and that this guy isn't worth my time. I do have to agree with Max because I do feel somewhat played but I don't know for sure yet.. and I can't work up the courage to confess or ask him how he feels.
I'm scared. Scared eversince 2007.
The last time I had a boyfriend, it's left me scared. I tried so hard and got nothing in return. Just a whole lot of bullshit and I ended up shattered, broken hearted. What fucking ever.

This is all bullshit. I don't know, I think I'll let it go now. Not knowing if he feels the same or not. I can't tell. I just have bad vibes when I talk to him now.

I feel like I was too harsh, too much of a bitch. But he somehow deserved it, it may have hit him hard but I don't think it hit him like it hit me. A thousand bullets through my chest.

Sigh....

because.. the only person i see is you.

I stop to catch my breath and I stop to catch your eye,
No need to second-guess that you've been on my mind.
I dream days away but that's okay,
It's like I want to hear a silent sound and then hold it in my hand.
But a rose wont blossom from the ground,
Of desert sand but I like to pretend that...

One day I'll turn around & I'll see your hand reach out,
I'm only fooling with myself, yeah, yeah, yeah.
But maybe when you smile, it means you'd stay while,
Just maybe, yeah, you'd save me now.

Well, now it's etched in stone, that I can't survive alone,
You have the missing piece.
Yes, I slip away to a day that will never come,
It's like a splash of water to my face.
When I suddenly realize that you could never find a place,
For me in your eyes and I don't know why I keep thinking...

One day I'll turn around & I'll see your hand reach out,
I'm only fooling with myself, yeah, yeah, yeah.
But maybe when you smile, it means you'd stay while,
Just maybe, yeah, you'd save me now.

It's love in disguise, I'm lost in your mind, I'm lost in your eyes.

One day I'll turn around & I'll see your hand reach out,
I'm only fooling with myself, yeah, yeah, yeah.
But maybe when you smile, it means you'd stay while,
Just maybe, yeah, you'd save me now.

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I'm loving this chasing game but I hate it at the same time. I'm wondering when it'll all be over - when he'll finally be all mine, mine, mine. Mwhahha. No, I joke. He's so hard to catch, shit.

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& when you asked why I can't like him, the only reason I can think of is you. It's true when they say "Absence makes the heart grow fonder" because I can't even stand one minute without you..

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PS: I got banned from commenting my CBOX because I was spamming it just to get rid of old comments --"

i cant let you go, i keep trying but i cant

Boring. "Jenson - I Miss You" .. Old, I know. But I love it (L)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY - ALEX, DEE & PENGH.
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Made birthday invites for Kylie - turned out pretty noice.

These ones are just drafts of what they're meant to look like.
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Starting the good copy. Printed on gold paper.
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Drawing measurements - this part took ages, had to get everything right. Then I had to do the same for fourteen sheets of gold paper. Took me roughly an hour to finish drawing the measurements for all of them.
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Oh, yes. Procrastination. This is what happens after cutting too much paper. Your hands get sore and you slack off........ and then you take photos of yourself?
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Almost done, just a bit more cutting and minor adjustments.
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FINISHED~!! YAYAYAYYAYYAYAYAHHH ~!!! .. Effort... and in the end, I find out that the RSVP date is wrong. I wrote "August" instead of "July" ... OMG. Oh well, can't do anything about it now since most of them have been handed out.

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Can't be screwed making a proper post. Toodles xxx

the things that make you go "fucking bitch, get over it"

Okay. I currently smell like smoke from the barbecue and it's giving me a headache. Not to mention I've been needing to crap for almost two hours now. I'll be back after a shit/shower and then I'll finish this post.

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Haha, didn't even end up taking a shower yet because as soon as I finished chucking a shit, Kenji texted me and told me they're having toasted marshmallows downstairs! Mmmmmh. Soooo, I rushed downstairs and he was like "Umm, no marshmallows yet, Steve's gone to buy it" Waited for the marshmallows to come home. My relatives and I sat in the backyard for about an hour eating toasted marshmallows until it was just me and Kenji, we played with the fire - there were corn kernals on the ground so I threw them into the fire and it popped, pretty cool. And then Kenji decided to throw a marshmallow in, it burnt and stunk the backyard. He blamed it on me afterwards, lol, awesome cousin!

Oh yeah, I had people chatting to me on Msn before I went downstairs for marshmallows but not really anyone of importance. Okay, I lied. There was someone important but I didn't feel like chatting to him tonight - it's that guy I wish for, to chat to me at night, he finally did today and I snobbed him - which is a really low thing to do but I guess he deserved it for taking his time to reply to me or just die on the conversation every time I talk to him.
I'm feeling a bit of regret for ditching the conversation with him without saying anything. After all, last night at 11:11, I did wish that he'd talk to me soon and tonight he did. I wasted a wish - and I don't even believe that wishes come true.
I wonder if there was some kind of chance behind that... I wonder what we would have talked about or if he would have said something that would make me feel warm, fuzzy and then fall for bullshit all over again, lol. I can only wonder....

You're probably wondering about the title for this post?
Well, I used to read the posts that this chick writes up on her blogspot and just think she's simply, plain dumb. I forgot about her after a while because I don't hang around that group anymore so to me, she's dead and out of my world. Today, I was bored and remembered how I used to visit her blog all the time but then she stopped posting. I decided to visit it for once in ages to read what she's been up to and believe me, she's still a stupid, dumb bitch that won't get over things, especially the guy she 'loves'. Okay, I know how mean I sound to think "get over that guy you like" because that's easier said than done but when she continuously goes on about it, it's just so annoying. Why? So she has a "boyfriend" which she thinks really loves her and is into her but what she doesn't realize is that he sees other girls and fucks around behind her back. He doesn't even show that he loves her, he doesn't even show he cares. When they're out in a group of friends, he ditches her. Can anyone tell me, where is the love? Can you tell me how stupid she is for still being with him?
You're probably thinking "how the fuck do you know, Wendy?" Oh, I know. He "cheated" on her with me, Lol. No, we didn't date but we hooked up, no biggy. We used to talk and he used to tell me: "No, we aren't dating. She really likes me but I just see her as a friend, you know?" Yeah, you mean, she's just a chick on the side. Just like a fuck buddy, you know she'll always be there.
Haha, I can't get over this. I still can't believe how head over heels she is for him. Funny thing is, she actually sees that he doesn't pay attention to her and shit. She knows he's a ladies man, she knows it all. It still doesn't stop her. Complete and utter stupidity. I know I write a lot of shit about how depressed I am about things but I don't compare to her. There is nothing happy on her blog, every post is depressing, sad, emo, attention seeking, all the downie words you can think of and they're all posted in the form of a poem. Example: (this is going to be about me)

He didn't call me last night,
Don't know when he will.
Do I even matter to him?
Does he even care?
One minute, he's talkative,
the next minute, the conversation dies.
I don't know what to do anymore,
He confuses me.

Yeah, constantly like that. Seriously man, get over it. As your post says "I have no one." Damn straight, if you keep that up, people are just going to think you're in need of sympathy, which in this case, you do. Unfortunately, you're not getting it because people don't give a shit if you're miserable. You might as well fake a smile.

too busy ignoring me to even notice me

Bleh. I guess you could figure that I'm about to go on about how annoyed I am because I feel like I'm ignored. Invisible, whatevvvvvvvvs.

Hardout snobbed might be the word but then again, I think he'd talk to me if I start the conversation. Then it'll die like always so I refuse to start anything right now. I've also been waiting for a phone call from him but that hasn't been happening either. I feel somehow led on because of some of the shit he said to me recently about how he looks for me when I'm not online - pfft, right. What a way to make me feel fuzzy inside, I fall for bullshit too easily. I don't care if he reads this, he may think I'm a bitch for blurting it all out on here instead of talking to him about it but mehhhhhh.

I don't want to go out because I'd rather sit at home waiting for him to come online, knowing that he won't even be chatting to me but I'll just sit there staring at his msn name and get pissed off. I'm stupid, I know.

I do, in a way, feel bad for saying all this but I'm not the type of person that'll just BLEH. I don't know. I feel like deleting this post as well, Lol.

On the bright side: I played Poker today, Poker always takes my mind off stupid things but then when I start losing I get all pissy and think about random shit again. I played last night as well with Michael and he told me he found old Area58 photos of me and him from years back when we were dating. I never even knew they existed, I told him to scan them but I don't think he will.

ARRRRRRRRRRGHS. SO ANNOYING.

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˙noʎ ssıɯ ı `ǝǝl ɔıɹǝ

tax my arse; i get to spend $50 !!

Yadda yadda and as Borat says it "You can't get this~ you can't get this~ AH LALALALA"

Bored out of my freakin' brain. It's Friday night and I'm sitting at home blogging, Facebooking and not chatting on Msn. Nothing out of the ordinary.

Hung out with Dimmy yesterday.. and Tim. Yes, Tim (Lol) Just a tad awkward but then I got over it and started mucking around and shit. We played Poker and I kept going all in - we weren't playing serious though. I won a couple of times but I'm still so damn freakin' nub! Played other card games after - Thirteen, Bullshit and some other kinds of Poker which I don't understand. Meh.
I wanted to play Guitar Hero but it was apparently broken - next thing you know, Tim's playing it. What a liar. I swear those guys are somewhat gay. Haha, Terry's constantly farting and telling Dimmy to shut up, Tim is constantly talking about anal and Dimmy and I are just giving eachother the "wtf" look. Ahhhhhhh, it's so good to be hanging out with those guys again, I really missed them... In a friendly way~!

Anywayyy, went to Sunnybank last night and watched the pros play Maximum Tune. We saw Nelson there - why is he so quiet? I swear he doesn't talk much in real life!
Alex was working and we stood there watching and laughing for some reason, I don't remember why. It was a pretty fun but boring night. Yeah yeah.

Today, I just slept in. I feel like deleting all this shit I just wrote and restarting because I sound so lame. I told myself I was going to bitch about shit but I'm telling you my what I've been up to. Lol.

Oh, yeah! Lodged my tax today and fuck, it was sooooooooooooooooo confusing and time consuming. The government sent home a CD so I could just lodge at home and it took roughly thirty minutes - an hour. I didn't understand the questions so basically, I just pressed "No" for all of them. Haha, there was this one section where you had to fill in shit about whether you have to pay for uniform or not. This is what I wrote:

(Text reads: I had to pay $5 for a stupid fucking hat and I had to give it back when I quit anyway!)


Yeah, that's right! Suck on that Mcdonalds! Only joking. I didn't actually lodge my tax with that shit written on it. They probably wouldn't send me my money back if I did but yes, Mcdonalds is so damn cheap now - just because you lost your hat or someone else took it, you have to pay for another one. And they're already taking like, a dollar out of our pay just for uniform.. That's like fifty-two bucks a year! Cheap bastards. By the way, I get eight hundred dolllars tax back and seven hundred and fifty goes into my phone bill. I have roughly fifty bucks for Kylie's birthday and Klub Kandy. GEE FUCKING GEE!

Anywho, I went to Inala with my aunt after lodging my tax and went shopping with Sandy and Tuan. Holy fuck, junky couple! They went to Coles to buy a shitload of junk food to stash in their room! Then again, if I had money, I would have pretty much done the same! Sandy bought me Lindt chocolate - the small three packs because they were three for four bucks. I don't really like Lindt, it's too oily and.. as we Viet's call it, Beo' . Yes, it's beo' - lmao.

Went to Sunnybank again tonight but this time with my aunt and cousin - ate at Coffee Square. I used to like Coffee Square but I think the customer service is getting really bad. They need people like me working there.. lol. Not joking. After Coffee Square we stopped by Lil Hong Kong to get roast duck for cousin and they took about twenty-five minutes just to cut the duck. I mean, come onnnnnnnnnnn it takes two minutes at Darra! My cousin got pissed and went off at the worker - pretty funny.

Went home, here I am. Boring. Bleh. I forgot to go Funhouse to get my scarf off Alex. Dammit.

BOSCO IS GOING TO BE AT ECHOES ON THE 28TH JULY. LOLWTFBBQ?

˙ǝɹoɯʎuɐ ǝɹǝɥʇ ǝq ʇ,uoʍ ı `ǝɯ ɹoɟ ʞool noʎ uǝɥʍ

under his spell, i can't break

Yeah, I know. I don't like this layout either but there's something I do like about it, I don't know what. I hate all that stupid crap written in the centre there. I really don't see the point of it and I really want to change it but it won't let me.

Anyway, I feel as if I need to rant about certain things again, just to get it all off my chest but I don't know where to start and once I start, I probably won't stop or I'll probably just delete everything, like always.
Actually, now that I think about it, I'll only be ranting about the same thing I did in my older post so I don't think I'll be fucked to write it again. You can just flip back.

Oh yeah, I'm sick of people randomly starting shit with me on Facebook Poker. I don't know why they do it but it's just so lame and annoying, they say the dumbest thing. Linda can possibly relate because she gets started on as well. Like omfg, "kiss my dick" yeah, right. Let's cyber this shit! No, thanks.

*Sigh. Life without being able to use my phone.. It's killing me not being able to text or call people. I desperately wanted to text someone last night to tell them I miss them but I knew it wouldn't send, so I still did it. Hopefully they got the message some other way, which I highly doubt.

I'm so sick of so many things! I just remembered that the guy that used to like me, still likes me and is still asking my friends how I am and argggghs! that shit pisses me off. Shut up, you're telling the world you're going to ignore my existence and get over it but as far as I'm concerned, you aren't doing a very good job.

Bleh, annoyed. Too annoyed to even write anything anymore. Besides, I miss you. He doesn't know who he is but I guess he could and would figure it out really soon, I hope.

An attempt to breakdance. failed.

Me, Shubba, Dimmy & Steven went to Sunnybank today and bummed for six hours. Gosh, it was the most boring time ever spent there! Anyways, we got bored in the carpark so we attempted to breakdance. We failed. (Cbf rotating the video)

Oh! and this old video of Bao which I only came to uploading tonight..

♥ just those simple words...

& you make it all better.

♥ cos when a heart breaks, it dont break even

BLER. It's freeeeeeeeeeeeezing. I've had a fever since Sunday night and I'm having the time of my life~!!!! Not. So I haven't been able to eat properly, usually I finish a bowl of rice, I can't even finish a quarter now. Everything tasted weird because I had some weird, slimey fluid thing in my mouth that made everything taste bitter and making me want to throw up. It's horrible.

I had a dream the other night I was walking home from Inala plaza and I was struggling, I ended up collapsing and no one helped me. I tried to pick myself back up but failed to do so and just sat there crying, waiting for a helping hand. Eugh, so dramatic.

I'm getting a bit better now. Thank goodness, but going out today was not the best idea because it was freeeeeeezing. Bleh. I can't be screwed writing right now, my fingers are cold, I feel drowsy and I'm pissed.

Eww, I have my period. Period + Fever = Fuck my life. Kthxbye.

♥ whatever you say, you can have it your way

This has got to be the laziest Sunday I've ever lived. I woke up at 12:30pm, had breakfast and jumped straight onto the internet. Played Restaurant City, Poker, Omgpop, Tetris, watched Youtube videos. Bleh. It's so boring so I guess this is going to be a short blog post. On a bad note, I'm sick, I have a massive headache, sore throat, blocked nose and dry coughs. I've been freezing my arse off all day, wearing five layers of clothes to keep me warm and I've kept my hoodie over my head - I must be getting a fever. I'm so vulnerable to catching a cold/fever, I'm weak. I hope this isn't swine flu. Anyways, shall leave you with this video I just found. His voice is amazing , almost as good as TOP from Big Bang.

& he's not lip synching either~



haha, thought she was funny and cute, rofls

♥ i'm so damn happy when im depressed

Oh mannnnnnnn, what a day it has been. I woke up at 12pm to the sound of my aunt talking (she talks really loud) and I overheard them saying they're going to Sunnybank. Well, I already knew earlier in the week that my family had planned to go watch a movie today but I completely forgot until I eavesdropped on the conversation. I wasn't going to go but I didn't really feel like staying at home today so I got out of bed, ate breakfast and asked my mum if I could go with them and she said yes. With thirty minutes to get ready, I rushed myself, wearing the same thing I wore on Thursday night but with a different jacket, applied the daily essential eyeliner and straightened my hair and we left.

We got to Sunnybank and bought movie tickets for Ice Age 3 and then played games in Funhouse for a bit, bumped into Vinson! Just a tad of an awkward moment there.
I played Rave Party? Whatever it's called.. haha "Gamblore" I don't really know how to play it, I just know load and drop. I was playing and out of nowhere, the coins were dropping automatically. I was like 'what the fuck?' and I realised I got 333 of the same colour - so it drops coins automatically, I think 33 times? - I thought I screwed up the machine. I won quiet a few tokens from it but I had to use it all because the movie was about to start.

The movie, in my opinion, was good. It was funny and cute! I loved the part when Elly the mammoth gave birth to Peaches, it reminds me of my youngest sister when it googoo's and gaga's. I had a bit of a teary during that scene, it was sooooooooo adorable! After the movie, my family went to buy BBQ pork and roast duck, yummo. I went back to Funhouse with my brother and cousins and saw Alex, he sucks at MT :P Stood around watching him play and headed back home, exhausted.

I'm freaking lazy to finish this blog even though its almost finished. Oh yeah, check this weird mutant, alien, brainy looking thing.. its freaking SICK.

Omg, my mum finally agrees on getting a puppy! So I'm hardout searching for one, a small toy dog - preferably a Pomeranian - otherwise, maltese, shih tzu, llhasa apso, yorkshire terriers, anything small, cute, and fluffy is good! If you know anyone that's giving away puppies or selling them, tell me :D I really want a puppy!

Another thing, I got new $20 shoes! They're like a copy of Converse Chucks but I think I like these better, they're pretty simple but cute. Girl Xpress for the win. My mum bought them for me and she got herself a pair as well but cheaper ones! haha!

♥ baby, just pretend & make tonight ours

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♥ with every word, another feeling dies.

My mum disconnected the interned once again, last night while I was fixing all these Blogger html codes. Yes, it's pretty easy once you get the hang of it but it still takes a while because you have to know where to put and you have to find the right codes. I still haven't been able to find the html code for archive postings - I want the post title, not the date, to show up.

After I got disconnected I decided to play around on PhotoshopCS4 and see what I can do with my photos. They aren't the best but I'm still trying to learn how to edit them so they look pro - not very successful at the moment - I'm still trying to get used to it. Some weird shit happened when I was painting a background last night - I wanted green but it kept coming out grey - it pissed me off so bad until I realized the colour palette was set to greyscale. This shows how noob I am at it, Lol.

It was around 2am when I ran out of cool photos to edit so I decided to head to bed. I ended up laying there playing Puzzle Bobble on my phone until 4am - I started getting drowsy but for some reason I couldn't sleep. I pretty much lay there staring at the wall and thought "I'm just going to do an allnighter" - I fell asleep around six and woke up at 11:30am, took a shower and jumped straight on the computer to finish my blog.

Reh~! This post is pretty shit but I can't be screwed to write anything good and interesting since nothing like that has really been happening in my life.

I think I'm just going to leave it here.

Oh, yeah! I haven't been able to pay off my phone bills because I'm unemployed and pretty much bankrupt so Optus has disconnected me from making any calls, texts and using the internet. I'm hoping I can pay for it soon when I get a job but for the meanwhile, if anyone needs to contact me, please call me because there's no way I'm going to be able to get back to you. Thanks.