lmfao, wendy you dumbfuck. got playeddddddd.

I can't let you go, I keep trying but I can't. Boy, it's impossible, I miss you too bad.

Nah, fuck it. I'll let you go, I'm not going to try. It's possible, I won't miss you anymore.

You're probably wondering what the fuck I'm being all shitty about. Lol. Long story but I should tell you anyway? Yeah, just to fill my blog gaps.

So, I met this guy a while ago - last year. I never really talked to him until after Chinese New Years - I asked a friend for his email and yes! I got it *happy*
He never really talked so I said "you know, I'm going to delete you off my contact list unless you can give me a good reason not to" so he said "because I'm cool! No, jokes. I promise I'll talk to you when I'm not busy" something along those lines anyway - I was happy with that so I left him on my list. He did chat to me after he promised which was a good thing.
We been talking eversince then but not like every night or anything - just anytime either of us feel like chatting.
Recently, we've been talking a lot. I started to gain feelings for him but I wasn't really sure because there were other guys in my life as well but I was able to cut them out for specific reasons.
Right now, I really do like this guy but I'm just so uncertain of him? He talks to me and says things that make me happy, it brings a smile to my face but there are times he just makes me lose hope. He confuses me. I don't know what to do anymore - I had a sulk about it just before.
I talked to Max Nee about it over msn and he thinks I've been played and that this guy isn't worth my time. I do have to agree with Max because I do feel somewhat played but I don't know for sure yet.. and I can't work up the courage to confess or ask him how he feels.
I'm scared. Scared eversince 2007.
The last time I had a boyfriend, it's left me scared. I tried so hard and got nothing in return. Just a whole lot of bullshit and I ended up shattered, broken hearted. What fucking ever.

This is all bullshit. I don't know, I think I'll let it go now. Not knowing if he feels the same or not. I can't tell. I just have bad vibes when I talk to him now.

I feel like I was too harsh, too much of a bitch. But he somehow deserved it, it may have hit him hard but I don't think it hit him like it hit me. A thousand bullets through my chest.

Sigh....