negative things.

I believe in positive affirmation, as what my ex-manager taught me, teaching yourself to be positive, will keep you positive. Even when a lemon is thrown at you, no matter how big or small it is, positive affirmation would keep you going, although holding back that negativity, you're still able to put it behind you with a smile on your face.

It might not make any sense to you at all because you don't see this from my perspective but there has been a few problems I've been facing lately, whether it be family, work, relationships... but I've learnt to put that behind me when something happens and just move on with life. Yes, it means bottling things up and possibly thinking longer and harder into it when I zone out but if there is one thing life has taught me, it's to move on.

I do linger on in negative thoughts, like right now, I feel so wrong, I feel like I'm about to explode and breakdown.

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Anyway, my negative thoughts are mainly based on what my friends are to me. Surely, not a good thing to think negative about your friends but sometimes - and I know I'm not alone on this one - some friends just come and go, even the ones you've thought would stick with you forever.

It's where you're wrong.

I've had a friend who I've called my "best friend" for about five years now and we were pretty much inseparable but I guess things change when time flies and we grow older. I feel like I've done a lot for her, been there, listened, helped, things a good friend would do. I've spoilt her also but I feel as if I got nothing in return. I admit, she has done a lot of good deeds for me as well but it doesn't feel like enough. Right now, I feel like I'm nothing to her.

I tell her something about my life, I barely even get an answer. I tell her something I did today, she interrupts and talks about something else.

Like she's not even listening, not even caring about what I have to say. I do it back to her. Though, it's not like she cares because I'm sure she has her other friends to brag to. Even if they're the so called "friends" she twofaces. -Massive sigh-

Sat down and had some lunch with an old girlfriend the other day... we had a good talk, a few laughs then this so called "best friend" and other friends come in, says hi, leaves their bags at our table then sits at a different table. We're totally your "bag look afterers". No. Thanks for leaving US out. Maybe because we're different age groups but that shouldn't affect anything. You say age doesn't matter, why does it feel like it matters now?

IF you're reading this, I'm not bitching. I just want you to understand how I feel. The other girlfriend sees how you've changed towards me now. It's really sad.

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imma chase that feeling ...

So, we're past the halfway mark. July 2010! This year has gone so fast! So much for enrolling to TAFE and whatnot. I really can't be screwed studying.

I love work. Minus the pedo, creepy boss. Yes, I know I rant about the fuckface all the time. He gets better, only when I'm flirtier :P LOL joke.

My hands are freezing to the point I can't even press the letters on my iPhone keyboard :( Makes it so hard to reply to messages. Which reminds me, I was reading the newspaper on Thursday? I have phone texting disorders :( I don't know why they make a big deal of it though, I'm sure there are habits that are way worse that text disorders.

Textaphrenia: Hearing texts come on or feeling your mobile device vibrate when it has not. Constantly checking your mobile to see if a message has arrived.

Textiety: The anxiety teens feel when they have not received a text or are unable to send texts. They feel like they have no friends and also over-analysing the reasons why people have not replied immediately.

Post-Traumatic Text Disorder: Physical and mental injuries sustained while texting, such as walking into poles and people, plus feelings of depression when no one contacts them.

Binge Texting: When the users send lots of individual texts or group texts to engage as many responses as possible so they can still feel like a part of the group.

Oh, yeah. I can totally relate to all of these :/

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Still haven't picked up my tickets for Winterbeatz. Told Maverick I would on Friday but I got caught up with other things then couldn't be bothered going City.

Well, hands are freezing, the heater is on in the lounge so I'm gonna leave it here, have a cuppa and probably sleep.

/end awesome weekend. WOOT, chilllllllllaxxxxxxx.