...but it's just something I've held in for too long and I still do feel the same way now and then. It's something you guys won't really understand and I don't completely expect you to.

Anyway, although I know these people should never be the reason why I don't want to be here anymore. Yes, I have some friends and family but I don't know where my life is going and with the pain I've been going through, it feels a lot easier to actually end everything. I just want to sleep the pain away. I don't want to wake up tomorrow feeling the same shit over and over. It feels like nothing has gotten better, nothing will be okay.