the things that make you go "fucking bitch, get over it"

Okay. I currently smell like smoke from the barbecue and it's giving me a headache. Not to mention I've been needing to crap for almost two hours now. I'll be back after a shit/shower and then I'll finish this post.

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Haha, didn't even end up taking a shower yet because as soon as I finished chucking a shit, Kenji texted me and told me they're having toasted marshmallows downstairs! Mmmmmh. Soooo, I rushed downstairs and he was like "Umm, no marshmallows yet, Steve's gone to buy it" Waited for the marshmallows to come home. My relatives and I sat in the backyard for about an hour eating toasted marshmallows until it was just me and Kenji, we played with the fire - there were corn kernals on the ground so I threw them into the fire and it popped, pretty cool. And then Kenji decided to throw a marshmallow in, it burnt and stunk the backyard. He blamed it on me afterwards, lol, awesome cousin!

Oh yeah, I had people chatting to me on Msn before I went downstairs for marshmallows but not really anyone of importance. Okay, I lied. There was someone important but I didn't feel like chatting to him tonight - it's that guy I wish for, to chat to me at night, he finally did today and I snobbed him - which is a really low thing to do but I guess he deserved it for taking his time to reply to me or just die on the conversation every time I talk to him.
I'm feeling a bit of regret for ditching the conversation with him without saying anything. After all, last night at 11:11, I did wish that he'd talk to me soon and tonight he did. I wasted a wish - and I don't even believe that wishes come true.
I wonder if there was some kind of chance behind that... I wonder what we would have talked about or if he would have said something that would make me feel warm, fuzzy and then fall for bullshit all over again, lol. I can only wonder....

You're probably wondering about the title for this post?
Well, I used to read the posts that this chick writes up on her blogspot and just think she's simply, plain dumb. I forgot about her after a while because I don't hang around that group anymore so to me, she's dead and out of my world. Today, I was bored and remembered how I used to visit her blog all the time but then she stopped posting. I decided to visit it for once in ages to read what she's been up to and believe me, she's still a stupid, dumb bitch that won't get over things, especially the guy she 'loves'. Okay, I know how mean I sound to think "get over that guy you like" because that's easier said than done but when she continuously goes on about it, it's just so annoying. Why? So she has a "boyfriend" which she thinks really loves her and is into her but what she doesn't realize is that he sees other girls and fucks around behind her back. He doesn't even show that he loves her, he doesn't even show he cares. When they're out in a group of friends, he ditches her. Can anyone tell me, where is the love? Can you tell me how stupid she is for still being with him?
You're probably thinking "how the fuck do you know, Wendy?" Oh, I know. He "cheated" on her with me, Lol. No, we didn't date but we hooked up, no biggy. We used to talk and he used to tell me: "No, we aren't dating. She really likes me but I just see her as a friend, you know?" Yeah, you mean, she's just a chick on the side. Just like a fuck buddy, you know she'll always be there.
Haha, I can't get over this. I still can't believe how head over heels she is for him. Funny thing is, she actually sees that he doesn't pay attention to her and shit. She knows he's a ladies man, she knows it all. It still doesn't stop her. Complete and utter stupidity. I know I write a lot of shit about how depressed I am about things but I don't compare to her. There is nothing happy on her blog, every post is depressing, sad, emo, attention seeking, all the downie words you can think of and they're all posted in the form of a poem. Example: (this is going to be about me)

He didn't call me last night,
Don't know when he will.
Do I even matter to him?
Does he even care?
One minute, he's talkative,
the next minute, the conversation dies.
I don't know what to do anymore,
He confuses me.

Yeah, constantly like that. Seriously man, get over it. As your post says "I have no one." Damn straight, if you keep that up, people are just going to think you're in need of sympathy, which in this case, you do. Unfortunately, you're not getting it because people don't give a shit if you're miserable. You might as well fake a smile.