this wont be the first time that you stood me up.

Blerrrrrrr, FML.

I'm so sick of my parents arguing and shit. This is the longest they've stopped talking to eachother and I'm getting a little bit worried. Mum chucked a tantrum before.. I'm not in the mood.

PV isn't talking to me. I don't think I did anything wrong. It's something small, why is he taking it so seriously? He told me not to turn small things into a big deal. I'm over the fact that he left the party I was at to go to his friends - not really - but I understand where he had to be. I do now, anyway. Texted him yesterday to see where he was because I was stranded at Inala at 11pm - taxi took one hour to come - and he didn't reply. He hasn't texted me at all today and he was also meant to take me to Korean BBQ as a birthday dinner that he owes me. CANCELLED.

Cried my eyes out. Gone crazy, on the floor. If it isn't enough drama happening at home, I don't think I need more shit.

PV, I'm tired. It hurts me writing this. We are NOTHING but "good friends" as you say and I respect that. It doesn't matter if you don't feel the same way as I do, just as long as I know you're always going to be here for me like I will be for you..

djhfaskdfhs I'm giving you everything but I'm getting nothing in return. It's not something I usually do and I feel so stupid right now.

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This is the third Sunday in a row I've cried and I don't want to anymore. Out of these Sunday's, Ernie has always been there for me to help cheer me up.

He's always there for me. He tries so much.
I don't see him in any other way than a friend right now but I wish I could see him more than that.

I made my decision tonight. PV, you forgot dinner. I will forget you now.