♥ this is what you do to me, boy

I can't take any of this shit no more. I need to let it all out, I can no longer keep it all bottled up inside. It's hurting me too much! ................... *farts.

Nar, I joke about the farting bit. Actually, I am feeling a bit flatulent ey? .. Haha, I kid!

LOOK WHAT ALVII FOUND!!


uhh --"

Okay, to the point. I finally have a song title for this post that actually goes along with what I'm about to write. Yes, this is the first post in this blog that I will be pouring my heart out over like a teenybopper! I am sorry if this annoys anyone but I hardly ever do this anymore and I think I'm just going to explode if I don't let it out!

This blog goes out to .. a few certain people that I'm actually going to name and I don't care what the consequences are! I'm sick of hiding it from the world.

Lets start with..

Michael Vo: You must have been the first guy I ever loved, who I was truly, madly, deeply in love with. I don't know if you know, and if you didn't then yes, I know it's too late to even say this. I remember exactly what day we started dating and also what exactly happened between us. Very heartbreaking. I don't think I ever told you about my dream. I cried every night because of it and I guess you could say, the part where you ditched me for Alice came true. Til' this day, I'm still missing you. Deep down, I still love and care for you but the only way to love you like this now is as a friend.

Alvii Nguyen: I miss us back in the old days when we didn't know shit all. When we got in trouble by our parents because we're family friends and I was the bad influence, talking late at night, FLC Fete, how you used to be sooo cute and innocent :P How we were meant to .. at the fete! haha.. I call it Love. Still loving my Alviipoooooo to the days; just as friends!

Ardi Muchtar: Never really got the chance to know you well enough but I knew you were something special. Even if it meant me getting screwed over after schoolies because of our stupid actions, our stupid "Verbal Agreement" to something we both should have never taken a part of. You were such a dickhead back then but I can see how much you've changed into a better person and I'm very happy for you. I'm still missing you at times but I respect what you wanted - ! What happens in schoolies, stays in schoolies.

Allen Le: I don't even wanna go there --" BUT I guess I have to. YOU, screwed me over big time. Yes, I really did LOVE you. The question is.. Did you even LOVE ME? .. ONCE? I don't think you did. It was always on and off .. It was always you, not me. I gave you so many chances yet you were still able to stuff up hardcore. I really don't have much good stuff to say about you..... Just, thank you. I've learnt a lot from your stupid actions and I'm really sorry to say these things.. but yeahh --" At least we're still friends, I guess that's what matters right now...

Timmy Lam: Ohh baby, looks are so fucking deceiving. I don't have much to say about you. I just hope you settle down soon and change your cheating ways.

Oh and I liked Leslie at one stage but when I told him I missed him, I think he took it as a joke ^^ pretty awesome guy.


dhgkjdhgkja sdfash dkjfhad s.. i get fucked over too many times. Right now, I like Chrissss. I don't even care if he's reading this! DO YOU KNOW WHY?!?!?!

I'VE BEEN HURT TOO MUCH TO EVEN GIVE A DAMN WHO HURTS ME NOW! . . . It's like.. I'm bulletproof. Yeah, what? You gonna shoot me down? Give me your best shot bitch, I'm bulletproof. Yeah, that's how you fuckheads see me HUH!??! .. arrghdhsfafj fd .

*sighhh.. Chris, I miss you.


lie to me, one last time ......