dancing this dance alone.

Let the... depression kick in.

I got wayy too drunk last night, way off my head for the first time since NYE 2008 at Charlie's. It felt quite good except for the parts where I vomitted. I still remember a lot of the night, parts I want to remember, parts I don't want to remember. The best of it would have been when HE was looking after me and I was hugging him.. awwwwww. Too bad it was a drunken thing and won't really ever happen in my soberness.

Well, I really appreciate those people who stuck by to look after me - Matt, Huy and Quan. Love you guys for it :) But am sorry at the same time for ruin what would have been an awesome night for you guys.

Welpppps, so drunk. HE kept walking away from me when I was trying to hold onto him. I am reallyyy sick of it, I try and fail. This was however, the worst way to do it. Being drunk around him and I'm pretty sure he was quite mad at me for it, so blunt to me this morning, it really hurt.

Blah, I don't know. I am about to let go but when I do, I really hope you don't come to me then, I don't think I'll take you :/ It's hurting me, it hurts so much, my heart feels torn. I can't breathe, arrgh. Why do you have to do this?

It's driving me insane. Your smile, just looking at you, it kills me.

I miss you too much..............